Tuesday, February 9, 2010

A Time of Reflection

I have been thinking about missed opportunities as of late. Each day goes by so swiftly that before I know it the week is over and then another month has escaped me and I ask myself "Where did this month go?" I began to take note of what I had been doing with my time only to find out that I did very little with my time to consider it well used.


There are so many things left that I want to do and I find myself falling way short on accomplishing them. I am guessing you know what I do with some of my time? BLOGGING...I spend too much time reading blogs. Some days I spend a couple of hours reading them and drinking my morning coffee. My writing has been slow to come and I don't feel like I have much to say right now. My writing comes and goes. Some times my thoughts are too personal to even write them.


During this time of reflection, I find that while I enjoy my blog friends greatly, a lot of things go undone and I spend a lot of time playing catch up. I work part time as a floral designer and it goes with out saying that this week is a very busy time for me. I love working as much as I enjoy blogging. So that is the second most time consuming thing I do. What about the rest of the day you might ask? You know it takes a lot of time to swallow medicine and vitamins. I do that twice a day. I have tea in the afternoon around three. Ironing takes up some time too.

I spend a lot of time taking care of my pets. In and out they go ten times a day. I have to go and find them if they don't come back. This takes time away, but I love my pets so I don't consider it a bad thing. I spend a lot of time driving to the next town for groceries. It took three hours the last time I went. That is something I could do with a lot less. I drive every two weeks for an hour to my acupuncturist. This in one thing that I can not do with out. Dr. Randy helps manage my pain from RA. Wham...there goes another day.

You know if I had stayed on that diet I keep starting, I would have lost a lot of weight by now.Some days I exercise, but not for as long as I should. I seem to be a little ADD. Life distracts me in a good way. I can't stand the way I keep blowing it off by my so called busy life. Ha! Why is it that I am a lot less productive in the winter months? I spend very little time on the phone, but I do spend time scrap booking and on photography. I spend a lot of time washing clothes. Why? I don't know how two people can have so much laundry, but we do.

I spend two hours a week in church and sunday school. Yes, I did finally find a church to attend. I spend two hours a month getting my hair done. I watch some TV at night like Lost and NCIS. I change the litter box that doesn't take too long. I feed the cats food and water seems like everyday because the dog eats their food. I do a little house work. And yet some how nothing ever really gets done or when it is done, it doesn't stay done for very long.

I guess I ponder things a lot and wonder about how things work. Maybe, I just think too much. When I don't feel good I spend time in my Hubs chair with the heating pad. When my sister is here we do things together. I have not given a very good accouting of my time.

Maybe I move slower than I use to move. Maybe, I am not as motivated as I once was. I want to start volunteering at place in town that feeds the hungry folks and senior citizens. I am going to have to put it in higher gear if I am going to get anything done. Why do I get so much more done in the Spring and Summer? Hmmmm...I'll think about this some more and will have to get back to you on it later. OK, I have rambled on enough. Ya'll take care now.

19 comments:

Mouse said...

Lovely post Pam, sometimes I think people (incl me) are so preoccupied with needing to do things, that we don't spend enough time contemplating what we do actually spend our time doing. Very synchronistic to read this, because it reaffirms something I looked at last night at college. Hope you have a great week :)

Debra said...

Your days sound much busier than mine. I work, I read, I blog, I go to church. If we look close enough though, God really is in all the small details of our lives. Working all things for His good.

Blessings

Nessa said...

Winter is for hibernating. Sometimes we need the break. We don't always have to go a mile a minute.

Dam

Sandee said...

For me winter is for short days where you try to cram everything into them as you can. When the weather warms the days are longer and it doesn't seem to fly by so rapidly.

I'm guessing that you are feeling what the rest of us do. We do tend to spend too much time on whatever...Facebook, blogging or all of the above. Sometimes just pushing ourselves away from the computer helps. It does for me.

Have a terrific day honey. Big hug. :)

Akelamalu said...

You know Pam I have only been retired from work for just over a month and I really don't know how I found time to work! Time really does fly!

Rudee said...

I think it's better not to reflect on time as a whole. If reading and writing blog posts pleases you, then it's not time wasted.

When knitting, I often look at the clock and wonder, where did the time go? It seems to fly by sometimes.

Finding Pam said...

Mouse...I have worked all my life and had little time for any indulgences. I suppose I am too hard on myself. I am one of those people that make a list and don't stop until it is all done.

Thanks for the comments.
Pam

Finding Pam said...

Debra...I see God in everything. It is so amazing how he is always there. You're so right in that God is in all the details.

Thank you Debra, and many blessings to you.

Pam


Nessa, You are so wise and I appreciate your comment.

Thank you,Pam

Hey Sandee...
Some times I feel like a hamster on that wheel going round and round and getting no where.

I will try pushing away more from the computer.

Big Hugs back to you.
Pam


Akelamula, I have so much respect for women that work full time and have kids at home.

After I sold my flower shop it was so hard to slow down. I worked 65 -80 hours a week. I sure don't miss that. I hope your continue to love retirement.

Rudee...so much wisdom here today. In the summer, I am outside most of the day,and I feel like I do more then.

I think I am in a transition right now between the decades. I will turn sixty in April and it has all gone too fast.

I see my health and strength not what it once was and I am so afraid that I can't maintain it. So each day I try to keep up what I can do and it frustrates me.

I admire you so much. Thank you for stopping by and commenting.

Blessings,
Pam

crochet lady said...

Nice to learn a little more about you and how you spend your days.

I think we are all more motivated in the summer and spring, when life is just so much more active around us. I know I am.

Winter is hard in WI, cold and snow and more cold and snow and a lot of gray days. Today was sunny though and I am soaking it up, sitting in the sun in my favorite chair surrounded by my favoirte plants, reading a great book. It's a good way to spend a winter day.

Just Be Real said...

Pam beautifully written. Appreciate you sharing your heart and what motivates you. Blessings and hugs.

Cherie/ Butterfly Dreamer said...

One day at a time Pam.Living each moment aware. *hugs*

QQ said...

Resting is for a longer journey in your life...

DeEtta said...

I enjoyed reading your reflections. Helped me get to know you better. Sounds to me that you make wonderful use of your time. Don't be so hard on yoruself and enjoy your YOU time. It is important for your sanity.

dawn said...

This is a lovely post Pam. I've spent two weeks sick with the flu and have had a lot of time to think about what I could be doing or should be doing but I had no choice but to rest. I think as long as you take the time to do the things you love - that's time well spent. The rest is just life!

Chickie said...

I need to quit those silly games you can play on Facebook. Sweety looked around at the house the other day and asked me if I'd let my FarmTown or Cafe World get run down...

Jovan King said...

Process Orientation and worry less of outcome...

Just Be Real said...

Pam, thank you once again for your encouragement! Blessings.

Tammy said...

Blogging does take up a lot of time, on both sides - reading and writing. I often feel very much like you where I feel that I have "wasted" real time sitting in front of a computer screen. Then I have to remember that although I don't know the other person in real life, I have taken part in something that they have creatively produced, and then I don't feel so guilty!

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