This morning I spent reading some of my older posts about moving. It still brings me to tears when I read about how hard leaving my former home, my floral business, church family and dear friends was for me. I have been in a blue funk as many of you know for at least the year before our move. Hubs was living in another town for a year before we found any land to buy. Oh my, I was so lonely and terribly sad. This was very traumatic for me. Not for Hubs. Men just don't think like women do. So how did I cope? Not very well, you see I just struggled along putting one foot in front of the other and tried not to think too much.
I had been in pain from RA and my knee was injured on March 8th and I was so depressed. I started seeing a chiropratic and a counselor. I have to tell you that finally and I mean recently...my knee is better at about 80% and I am not depressed. Thank you Lord for working in my life to mend me. When you live in pain all the time it really brings you down and it is hard to focus on anything else. Then to be depressed on top of that. Ugh...is all I can say.
So last week, I noticed something was different. Hmmmm....I feel good. This was a wondeful moment to see how far I had come. I can walk with out pain in my knee and carry groceries up the decks stairs. I am still not at a 100%, but I am on my way. I told my therapist that little bit of news and she ask me what I thought had happened.? I know I owe it all to God, but I think the other things helped me along the way.
I remember how Dr. John would say such comforting things to me about this move. For those of you that did not know him, he was a retired Luthern pastor. He went on to be with the Lord almost 5 months ago. He understood my sorrow. I sure miss him.
I want to thank my bloggy friends for lifting me up and help keeping me a float during this time. You will never know how much I appreciate all of you. I am starting to see a new me and I like her. While I may not have many friends here or a church that feels like home, I am so thankful for my bloggy friends. Your listening to me is the kindest thing anyone has done for me. It has not gone unnoticed and I am gratful to you.
I am no longer looking at what I left, but looking to what I have. Hubs will start a new project in another town soon. I am sorry, but he is not taking the travel trailer. He will have to get up early and drive to and from. Last summer he was in south Louisiana forever. That was really difficult on me trying to keep the house, yard and everything together.
I wish you love and peace.