I don't have much time to post because my sister, Candy, is back in the hospital. Yesterday morning she woke up with pain going down her right arm, chest pain, and was nauseous. Not the way I like to start my day. Candy is doing too much and needs to rest more.
We live deep in the country. GPS can't locate us. People usually meet the ambulance at a local truck stop. Luckily, the ambulance came to our home. I am not good in any emergency. I guess a lot of this has to do with all the trauma in my childhood with my mother and her heart attack problems.
I feel dizzy and lightheaded while trying to find the phone numbers. I give Candy a whole aspirin. The medics say to give her another aspirin and she needs to chew it up immediately. All I can do is to start praying for her and for myself as well. I have to keep it together. Do you know how much energy it takes to keep it together? It takes about an hour to get her to the hospital. I don't know why the type has changed on me. I press the italics button, but nothing changes. I am not even sure if I am making sense today. Did you ever read the book "Waiting For Godot"? It is all about waiting, but I find I'm not as good at waiting as I thought. You see last week I had two crowns done. Since then, my teeth and jaw have hurt with a lot of pain and throbbing. I can't think of anything but this awful tooth pain.
I leave her about three in the afternoon because the doctors are keeping her. Today she will find out if they are doing the other two stents or not. Candy wants them done now. I'm not sure what they doctors will do. I'll let you know more when I find out. I am exhausted from all of the drama that has gone on with her DIL and her heart attack and now admission again to the hospital. I appreciate all of your thoughts and prayers.
On another note, I did apologize to Candy's daughter n law. I could not leave things the way they were. I did that four days ago. It made me feel so much better. I have not heard from her DIL. It doesn't matter because I made the first step and I feel OK with it. I'm still trying to breath and keep it all together, but those memories of my mother keep getting in my way.
I'll keep you posted when I know more.