Saturday, March 24, 2012

My sissy, Candy

This is a photo of Candy and me. I'm the short one and Candy is the taller one. I remember this like it was yesterday.

I'm excited to see the transformation in my sister, Candy. Life is pulling together for her. I am really proud of her for all the effort she is making. She finally got an appointment with a Psychiatrist. I've told you that she was recently been diagnosed as bi-polar. She is not stable, so her moods change often. I can't imagine feeling that way and not being able to change it. I am hopeful that her new doctor will know just what to do for her.
In the meantime, she is going to a therapist and making great strides learning all about her illness and how to manage it. She is opening up more and more everyday to others. Learning how to let go of the past and move on towards her future. It is such a joy to see the changes in her.

We haven't always liked each other. She wanted to be an only child and did not want a baby sister. She has pretty much lived her life as an only child. And all I ever wanted was to be loved by her. Seems we are both healing from our past. It has been nothing short of a miracle for us to be given this opportunity to get to know one another. I am seeing how much alike we are than I thought. We are both scared of rejection and fear of not being accepted for who we are. I can finally say that as of late, I have had an inner peace and a calmness that I have never experienced before. So this must be what feeling normal is like. My normal at least, what ever that may be.

I am feeling healed and I am seeing life a lot different than I did. Things are just working together for the good of me. I am grateful, so very grateful, indeed. My weight is finally on the move to a smaller size. I have lost four dress sizes and 45 pounds. I still have a ways to go, but I am confident that I can loose my weight. Eating has come full circle. Gone are most of my insane cravings. I don't want to eat anything that will cause me to slide. Exercise is going great. I am seeing some results from all of my hard work outs. I'm pumped.
I am going to her house to help her organize in a few weeks. Sissy was shocked since I said I would never help her again after the last time. I am back on my game as far as keeping my life organized, and I can't wait for the next challenge. Is this crazy or what?

14 comments:

DeEtta said...

Doing a "happy dance" for you, your sister, and the weight loss. You go girlfriend. Having your sister in your life will be the best blessing you will ever experience.

I am so proud of you.

Gail said...

Hi Pam-
All good news!! :-)
"Happy Spring", start bikini sopping!!
Love to you
Gail
peace.....

Sandee said...

I'm happy that Candy is doing so well. I'm also hoping that you two can become the greatest of friends.

Have a terrific weekend. Big hug. :)

Finding Pam said...

DeEtta, thank you for sharing my joy so abundately. Happy dancing in fun!


Gail, you know I stopped wearing a bathing suit when I was a size 12. Don't think I will be going there with a swim suit. LOL!

Sandee, I am hoping for the same thing. I've always loved her inspite of herself.

Rudee said...

It's so nice to hear your sister is making progress. I hope she is able to keep on making these positive strides.

You've made remarkable strides yourself. Congratulations on your amazing progress!

Finding Pam said...

Rudee, if Candy can get her medicine right for her bi-polar that would make a huge difference.

You know I've been in therapy for over two years now. It is one of the best things I ever did for myself. I'm glad you can tell a difference.

Vee said...

Doesn't sound in the least crazy to me; it sounds healthy and sane.

I'm so glad that your sister is learning more about her situation and how to manage it. Glad that you are a healing, too. We all need healing on a daily basis.

Thanks for your visits and for always leaving the nicest comments!

Finding Pam said...

Vee,thank you for the kind words. It is greatly appreciated.

Sandi McBride said...

You know, I am proud of YOU...so glad for Candy's giant strides, but girl, look how far you've come!!!
hug
Sandi

Xmichra said...

Not crazy whatsoever. Very much the opposite.

I am so glad to hear that you are finding this inner peace, that your sister is on the road to recovery, and that the two of you have made such great strides over the last while.

((hugs))

Just Be Real said...

Pam each post is an encouragement from you. Blessings and hugs.

Akelamalu said...

So pleased to hear your sister is getting it together and well done to you on the fantastic weight loss!

dawn said...

This is wonderful news Pam. I am so happy for both of you!

lailani said...

Oh Pam! This made me smile HUGE for you and Candy! Happy happy happy!!