Monday, August 18, 2008


Today is a little better, though I am still not sleeping. I do not feel so overwhelmed. Thanks to my family and friends that keep me in constant prayer. I apologize for my pity party in my previous post. I do admit that I am a big baby and that writing is just a release for my feelings and emotions. It is so hard to wait for this feeling to pass and I hate myself when I am in this state of mind. So it's alright if you don't read about me when I am like this, when I am at my worst.

I fight this everyday of my life. That is the first time I have really admited this... whew! I think my dog, Susie, has the same issues. We are a perfect match. I feel so loved by her and she is like me...needy. She just got up and came over to my computer to give me a big hug and kiss. Just too easy to be completely accepted without conditions by a person, but my dog loves me, as well as my cats! I don't want to feel.