I miss my friends from my past home town so much that I can't stand it. I never realised that I would not fit back into my old life. What I want to say is that they are all doing their own thing and I feel like I have to make an appointment with them just to see them. I don't fit there anymore, and I haven't found my place here in our new town. I feel a little bit lost. Neither place feels like home anymore. That makes me so incredibly sad. My heart hurts and my soul yearns for my home. My eyes weep for the past that is no more. I am paralysed...can't move back or forward.
So this is where I am at today. My season has changed and I await the new one. I am not good at waiting.
Another thought I had was does it make one a better person to do something you really do not want to do? My mother always said that it built character, but I think I have enough character.