Monday, April 13, 2009

I hate RA

I had my six month check up with my RA doctor and most of my blood work was good. My Creatine was elevated, which means I have inflamation. Unfortunately, he put me back on methotrexate and told me to come back in six weeks. He wanted to add another med, but I declined it because it tears my stomach up.

I have been in remission for well over six months, so this was not the kind of news that I was expecting to hear. Damn it! I am just too mad to write any more about this right now.

30 comments:

Thom said...

Pam I'm not trying to be stupid or insulting but after googling the meds in your post I take it you had cancer or something like that. First I'm very sorry to hear about that and I wish you all the best. The only words I can really say are to always think positive. It so helps in all you do. Take care my friend.

Much Aloha to you.

DeEtta said...

I'm sorry, Pam:( My prayers will be with as you go through this. Stay positive and know you are loved.

Nessa said...

I am so sorry you received bad news. Your angry is very understandable. My prayers go out to you.

Finding Pam said...

Thom-Thank you for your concern. I don't have cancer. I have rheumatoid arthritis and they use cancer drugs in smaller quantities to treat it along with a lot of other bad meds like prednisone and plaquinel. The methotrexate makes my hair fall out. I gained 43 lbs. from the predisone and I am fighting that as well.

I have been going to a accupuncturist as alternative approach. I just have to stay strong and adjust my attitude.

DeEtta- I appreciate all prayers. I will be ok as long as my RA doesn't flair. I am just mad. Sorry...

Nessa- I should not have vented on my blog but I have been feeling so great and the news was a shock. Thank you and please keep me in your prayers.

Finding Pam said...

P.S. Thomm- I am thankful that I do not have cancer. I read my reply and I sounded a little harsh. I am a floral designer and I need my hands because my work is my passion.

Sandee said...

Thanks for explaining what RA is. I didn't know. It sounds awful too.

You are in my thoughts and prayers honey. Big hug. :)

Strawberry Girl said...

*Hugs* Pam!! I will keep you in my thoughts.

I hope things get better. :o)

ramblingwoods.com said...

Rheumatoid arthritis and all the rest of the autoimmune diseases.. lupus and what I have multiple sclerosis are so unpredictable and you never know when there will be a flare. I just got home from the neurologist and that is a rant for me later..but I really sympathize with you on the methotrexate. I have been told that my next relapse will put me on a similar drug called cytoxan. This is really a blow and I am so sorry..

Aphra said...

I am sorry too :(

Akelamalu said...

Oh dear, sorry to hear this Pam. I'll send you some Reiki and lots of positive thoughts m'dear. x

Finding Pam said...

Sandee- Thank you for your prayers and that big HUG. I needed that.

Strawberry Girl- I need that HUG too! Thanks for keeping me in your thoughts. I really appreciate it.

Michelle- I will keep you in my prayers as well. I admire that you can do so much, especially your photography. You are so very talented. I try not to talk about it very often. I know how you feel about the meds. Ugh...

Aphra- Thank you for your comment. I am blessed to have so many wonderful blogfriends that give me encouragement and support.

Akelamula- I will be happy to receive the Reiki and those positive thoughts. They are much appreciated.

Dr.John said...

My regular arthritis is bad enough. I feel with you.
Every six months I have my lungs tested and I keep hoping they won't get any worse.
The time before last there was a big drop and I was crushed for several days.
But we bounce and go on living in grace.

Cherie/ Butterfly Dreamer said...

So sorry you arent well. I have arthritis also and it is very painful. I also have fibromyalgia ever since my radiation for cancer. I guess pain is a unfortunate part of life. Hope you are better.
XOXO
Cherie

Finding Pam said...

Dr.John- I feel for you and thank you for the reminder that we do bounce back and go on living
in grace.

Cherie (Butterfly Dreamer) I hope you are staying well and that you have some good meds for your pain.
I pray that you are cancer free. Thank you for your comment.

The Things We Carried said...

i understand. Anger is sometimes the only control we have left in a situation. Hugs to you, Pam!

Chickie said...

I'm sorry it was bad news and bad for you. And hey, if you can't vent here then where can you? ;)

Barbara(aka Layla) said...

Pam, I'm sorry to hear this but I am going to hope for the best and pray that the RA stays away and doesn't cause you more problems.

wendy said...

I am so glad you explained in the comment section. I too was under the impression (when you said "in remission") that you were dealing with cancer. I never realized/ thought that one could also apply the term to other health issues ... but it makes sense now that you mention it. I just learned something there.
Frustrating! But not unconquerable. You are a feisty woman (I just learned that from reading your murder story ... you've got to have a tough vein to be able to write a scary story, I think) and you will handle this with grace and courage and SUCCESS.
Keep us updated and I have no issues with you venting on your blog.

I finally got around to updating my blog and have added you to my blogroll (I don't think I had done that yet, but now I don't even remember! lol! my brain.)
All I know is that you belong on my blog roll for sure.

Love!

wendy said...

p.s. I left a comment on your story post if you want to read it.

Dawn (Twisted Sister) said...

My aunt has RA. I feel for you. You are in my thoughts and prayers...
{Hugs}

Akelamalu said...

There's a little something for you at my place today. :)

Sandee said...

Okay, where did that cool Honest Scrap award post go. I learned a lot about you with that post.

Have a terrific day. :)

lailani said...

Don't apologize for venting! No doubt you feel like the rug has been pulled from beneath you! In my prayers ...have a good night!

Thom said...

Thank you Pam for clearing that up. You are a courageous woman and keep thinking positive.

Finding Pam said...

The greatest thing about blogging is the wonderful friends I have made in this journey.

Words can not aptly describe how greatful I am for the hugs, Reiki, support, prayers and kindness from all of my friends. You make me feel better and I am most thankful for you.

I Love all of you...

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