Life is an ironic

When I was younger, and we still had kids at home, it seemed like there was never enough time for myself and especially time to do the things I wanted to do.  Things I always imagined myself doing after I slowed down a bit or after I retired.  I have often said I want to paint again at least something besides an interior wall. The irony of life is when you are busy all the time, you have great ideas, but no time and when you have the time, you have no ideas. In my case, I have the time, but I've lost the desire to finally do the things I always wanted to do like painting and being creative.  I sure hope I get it all back before life passes me by.  I'm working on it.  Trying desperately to get motivated again.

I think every time I get sick it brings me down. So my question to you...is what do you do to keep motivated?  The best advice I can give anyone is do the things you love when you are young.  Make the time for those dreams, the things that you are passionate about doing.  Don't wait.

I have a hard time sitting still for a long period of time.  One of the reasons I never learned to crochet is because I can't be still long enough.  Remember those cute little felt stockings with all the sequins?  I did one stocking for every member of our oldest son's family.  I even helped my best friend out by finishing one of her grand kid's stocking.  That was about five years ago when I was still busy with work and life.  Fast forward to now.  So instead of oil painting or water colors, I am doing a stocking for our youngest son.  He is a fireman and soon to be para medic.  I found the cutest fireman Santa with a Dalmatian dog on it.  He is not married yet, so I'll just start one or two for his future. I do enjoy having something quick to do especially in the winter months.  Maybe that is a start.

Retirement is not at all what I thought it would be.  In fact, some days are so long. I run out of things to clean, organize and do before the day is even over.  I have always been so busy all of my life with my family, work, church, friends and home that I never imagined a day where I would have all the time to do what I wanted. It is daunting to get up and do the same thing over and over again.  I mean...how many times can you clean house, then there's the days when I don't feel good and get very little down.  I think I have to constantly achieve something everyday in order to be successful.

Do you ever feel that way?  Maybe it's just me being too hard on myself.  Still, I thought I would ask the question. For those of you that are retired, how did you slow down? I'm feeling a bit lost with too much time on my hand.  My darling Hubs is always working on a project.  He seems so content.  He is productive.  Looking back, I see that I always gave everything I had to everyone else,but myself.  I am going to start working on it again and again until I achieve something I want to do for myself.