As you all know by now, I'm having a bit of a time with all of the stress of my sister and my Hubs retiring due to a layoff. You have followed me through a heart attack scare, a stress test, diverticulitis, not sleeping, unbearable pain, just to name a few of the things I've been dealing with. The worst symptom is feeling like I am going to loose it and have a panic attack. This has been going on for 2 1/2 months. I felt like I couldn't breath, swallow, relax. Nothing taste right, I felt nauseous, and a lot of other symptoms. I have been a mess.
I've had little results from my family doctor, he doesn't think I am depressed even though I think I am, and have told him so, he refuses to change my medicine. It finally occurred to me that I am in charge of my own well being. I don't have to stay with a doctor that won't listen to me or try to help.
This change all started with how lonely I am most days. I am a very social person. I decided to join my garden club in my former town. I've been going for two months and it was one of the best things I have done for myself. I really missed all of my friends and they missed me. I have returned to church, which feels good.
I can finally see again because I got new glasses. I have been so worried about insurance. We purchased one insurance only to find that it was not what it represented, so we cancelled. Then we tried Cobra, all sounds good until they want three months of of back premiums. Good grief, insurance is such a ripoff. Needless to say we cancelled Cobra. Back to the search for reasonable insurance. Of course Diabetes is not covered. Neither are most of my illnesses due to a pre-exhisting conditions. Thankfully, our local pharmacy gives us a reasonable price for our meds. The PA's visit is also reasonable.
I am so tired of the medical system ripping me off. I can't believe how much specialists charge. Today, I went back to our local clinic and saw a new PA, Carson. She sat and listened to me for a long time. After explaining all that I had been through, she changed some medicines and added celexa back. We had a good talk about everything. I won't go into all of the details, but she listened to me. She understands my situation with insurance. Hubs goes on Medicare next February, but I have a couple of years til I qualify.
So for the first time in a while, I feel hopeful. I have to tell you that it is a good feeling.